I wish someone had told me how simple it would be.
To take the leap. To give my dreams a go. To leave everything I knew behind to move to London and pursue my calling.
If I close my eyes, I can still remember how scared I was. Scared of not being good enough. Scared of not deserving it. Scared of failing and going back home with my tail between my legs.
Every single fear I felt, every single excuse I had, all complete and utter bullshit.
But they felt so real back then. I was so sure something horrible would happen if I made the tiniest mistake. The monsters would become real and eat me up alive.
But my calling, my soul work, my life purpose – whatever you want to call it -, it kept whispering into my ears.
“Go,” they said. “You know you’ll regret it for the rest of your life if you don’t.”
When you have a dream so strong, it won’t leave you alone no matter how many years you ignore it, you have no choice. You have to take the first step.
Even if it scares the heck out of you.
Even if you don’t think you’ve got what it takes to make it come true.
Even if you don’t have the slightest idea how to get started or how to do it.
You’ll find a way.
Because if your dream doesn’t scare you, it’s not worth pursuing anyway.
Because if you weren’t good enough, you wouldn’t have that dream in the first place.
Because the biggest secret of all is that no one has a clue what they’re doing. But they’re doing it anyway.
Because the truth is, you can’t fuck it up. No matter what you do, you can’t fuck it up.
All the obstacles along the way, the mistakes you make, the wrong turns you take, they’re exactly what’s supposed to be. They’re part of your journey. What’ll get you there.
I said taking the leap was simple. But it wasn’t easy.
For the first few months in London, I felt so lonely. I shared filthy flatshares with strangers and ate cheap frozen food every day because that was all I could afford. I cold called thousands of potentials clients who turned down my offers, rejected me.
I had no idea if things would ever work out. But they did.
Because I said yes. Because I committed to my purpose.
When you say yes to your soul work, the universe’s got your back. It’ll send you the help you need to make all your dreams come true – even if at times the help seems more like a curse.
All you have to do is show up. Put one foot in front of the other. Take a step. And then the next. And the next. And the next.
And when it all feels overwhelming and like your dream will never come true, remember this:
You made a commitment. You said yes. You chose this path.
So keep walking down it. Because there is no right or wrong action to take. No good or bad way to get there.
Even when it seems you’re so far off track, you can’t even see the track anymore, you’re still on track. Still going in the right direction. The direction of your dreams.
Keep going. You’ve got this.